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hurt less then Janet Kuypers 05/10/10, edited 05/11/10 when you have to watch death regularly when you have to see it happening when you have to adjust yourself        to this living thing not being around any longer well, that’s when you have to        find a way to get around it when you have to separate yourself        from the details of death it’s hard, you know turning yourself off like that turning yourself off to death but you have to it will hurt less then i’ve been told that when you see someone whose life has to end well, then you have to look at it logically as cruel as that sounds you have to think that even if this is someone you love you have to remember that this is life in general: it starts, there’s growth, then conflict, often trauma culminating in death face the facts that’s the way it goes when you have to think of what you have to go through think of it as a boxing match think of when you have to        practice for a violent battle even if it’s just practice and in practice you’re battling a friend when you are in battle, even in practice the one against you is no longer your friend and you have to fight them like they’re your worst enemy you cannot think they’re your friend, you cannot think that you cannot hurt them you are in battle and you know you’re on the right side because even when you practice for battle you’re in battle you have to remember all of the things you hate about them all of the things that are wrong with them remembering that quells the internal struggle that makes it easier to do what you have to do you keep seeing their face for days before this battle they face what you’ll have to go through you know it’s right you know what you’ll have to put them through even though it ends with their death really, you have to stop being so emotional that’s what you have to keep telling yourself it isn’t fun this isn’t what you should have to go through and i know it’ll be hard turning yourself off like that turning yourself off to death but you have to they say it’ll hurt less then Copyright © 2010 Janet Kuypers. All rights reserved. No material may be reprinted without express permission.