[the Writing of Kuypers][JanetKuypers.com][Bio][Poems][Prose]
and I was about to write him back,
you dont have it so bad
and thats when I decided
isnt that funny
that happens to me now,
and Ill go about my day
well, you get the idea
its like a cycle now
Manic Depressive or Something
while working,
one of my clients informed me
they have to take days
to move their ninety-one year old mother
(for the sixth time in ten years),
and he doesnt know
is he has the strength to do this sort of thing
saying that Im sure Im younger than him
(because we only correspond by letter)
and my mother is seventy-five
and is dying
so
you mothers still living
and
not to write them back
I dont like revealing
that much of my personal life, you know
I write, but I dont want
to reveal that much of my personal life
I know Im writing now
but Im not writing to anyone
Im just getting it out of my system
Ill start to think about it
and it will bring me to tears
and than Ill have to clean myself up
and Ill have to readjust
to everyone else having a normal life
and anything can happen
that will remind me again
and Ill fall apart
just a little more again
and Ill clean myself up again
and
like Im manic depressive or something
because when I forget about it
I can laugh and have a great time
and when Im in those in-between stages
no one notices at the grocery store
that Im losing my mother
I dont let it on
I dont act happy
I dont act sad
I just live in that in-between time
until I remember again
and drop down again
and Im depressive again
until the cycle lets me go back up
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