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Not Getting Better October 24, 1998 everyone is thinking that I’m getting better but no one knows what it’s like no one knows what pain I still go through yes, I’ve been fighting but I still don’t see the signs that anything is getting better people can tell me that it is but that doesn’t do me any good I don’t wear my glasses even though wearing them would make it easier to see but I don’t, because I have to train myself to not need them anymore maybe that will make me better at least that’s what I think I’ve wanted things to be better for three months now I haven’t wanted to wait for everything to get better and now I still have to wait and it’s already past due this getting better thing isn’t fair at least not to me, isn’t people think my vision is better because I’m not wearing my glasses that’s a good example, but it’s not I still can’t see, but I have to come up with a way in my head to make it better. So no one can see the difference. but i still feel it. I still feel the difference, and it’s not getting better. *** edited: everyone thinks I’m getting better but no one knows what it’s like the pain I still go through I’ve been fighting but I don’t see the signs that anything is getting better I still have to wait it’s already past due I still can’t see I come up with a way in my head to make it better no one can see the difference. but i still feel it Copyright Janet Kuypers. All rights reserved. No material may be reprinted without express permission.