in the airHave you ever noticed that the airisnt normal air in an airplane? I mean, I know they have to pump in the air, and pressurize it and all in order to keep us alive up there, but theres just something about the air in the cabin thats different. Its got a smell to it, thats the only way I can describe it. A smell of all these people, going places, running to something, or running away from it.
And it always seems that youre stuck |
My motherMy motherMy motherWe went to see my mother this weekend. You see,my mother has cancer, and we decided to go across the country for a weekend to surprise her and see how she was doing. it was breast cancer, so it really was the best case scenario, i suppose, so i managed to put it out of my mind until we actually had to fly there
The night before i couldnt bring myself to pack. it was
i kept telling people at work, well, you see, I have to go
In fact, when my sister told me the diagnosis, it
that I managed to postpone even thinking about it until
It shouldnt be this way, and I knew that, I knew that I But I wasnt supposed to think that way, things would be just fine.
So I finished packing at four in the morning and the next
and everyone was so happy to see each other, it was
and the sisters and dad walked into the front room to
so I suddenly became serious and sat down next to her |
coquinas1
I cant imagine
visiting Florida, ribbons
eating Christmas dinner
and after the Irish coffee,
the carolers would come,
singing ñWe wish you a
we would walk outside
and we would stand on our driveway
you could see down the road
and for a few lights burned 2
and we would take
dad drinking beer
i would sit at the front
and turning my head away from the boat to face it again
docking at a shoreline
the women go looking for shells
after an hour or two
we turn around we have conquered 3
and I remember
the little shells
going to the beach they were all my own
they burrowed their way into the
I unearthed a group of cocquinas once, before they could hide
I collected them
what did you teach me and I took them home
I added salt water and sand so I let them |
everything was alive and dyingI had a dream the other nightI walked out of the city to a forest and there were neatly paved bicycle paths and trash cans every fifty feet and trash every ten
and then a raccoon came right up to me
and she spoke to me,
and I said, you know they dont
Then I walked a little further
And I walked deeper in to the forest
when the wind tunneled through
I walked
weve been on this planet for so long
and I said, but I dont do much, and I woke up in a sweat
so tell me, Bob Dole
Do you even know why
did you know that medical researchers
You know my motives arent selfless
Id like to find a cure to these diseases
You know, I know youre looking at me
everything is linked here and you tell me Im extreme
and these animals and forests keep calling out to me
and Im beginning to think
we live through the guilt
maybe shoot ourselves in the head
in the wild
now that were civilized
maybe when we have all this power and so we do |
communicationInow that we have the information superhighway we can throw out into the open our screams our cries for help so much faster than we could before
our pleas become computer blips
to be left for someone to decipher
II
so i first returned mike wrights phone call
realizing i didnt actually get a hold of anybody
III
IV
and then it occurred to me, how difficult it had become
and then it occurred to me, no matter how many
V
but what if we dont want to communicate
what if we forget
VI
so i turned it on, dialed the number,
and the line was busy
VI
VIII
and the phone needed to be recharged,
while waiting for the pizza man
IX
its a phone book program,
and i love this program, ive created a file
but it always seems any computer
IX
you see, i could search the internet for hours
X
but then the question begs itself: |
some people want to believeso we were sitting there atdennys in some suburb of detroit, i dont know which suburb it was, but we were there at like ten in the morning eastern standard time, i was grabbing a bite to eat before i crossed the ambassador bridge and travelled into canada. you know, i really only associate places like dennys with travelling now, i always stop at some place like dennys only when taking a road trip and just stopping for some food. i think if i went into a dennys and i wasnt travelling, id get really confused. well, anyway, like i said, we were at dennys, and it was morning, so the both of us got breakfast. being a vegetarian, i ordered eggs with hash browns and toast, right? and the waitress says to me, like they always do in some no-name town in the middle of america, yuh dont want any MEAT?, like its so unheard of to not eat meat at breakfast. so i say, no, no meat, thank you, and then my friend orders pretty much the same thing, and we sit for a while, and talk and stuff, and then the food comes. so then she asks me, youre a vegetarian, right? and i say, yes, and then she goes, but youre eating chicken. and im just like, well, no, im not, an egg is an animal by-product, not animal flesh, and i was about to say that that was the difference between being a vegetarian and being a vegan, and she says, but if a chicken sat on it long enough, it would become a chicken. and im just like, well, no, its an unfertilized egg, there was never a rooster around that hen, so it could never become a chicken. and shes like, well, its a chicken, though, and she just couldnt think that this wasnt a chicken. and im just thinking, my god, does she really think that a chicken can lay eggs without them being fertilized? like only worms and stuff can procreate without two sexes present. so our voices start getting a little louder, and then it ends up where im saying so are you having an abortion every time you have a menstrual cycle? are men who have wet dreams mass murderers? and shes looking away and saying im not listening to you -
and then i realized that some |
Copyright Janet Kuypers. All rights reserved. No material may be reprinted without express permission.
This page has been by more than visitors