screamingcrowdsscreaming Thousands thousands standing cheering screaming
waving
between
care |
backbone family actItried you actress part you cared damn you feelings emotions daughter
nothing
flash backs
closing |
door framedoorbellhour magazine door
man
tired
almost
rambled
nonsense
heard
stopped
slammed |
morningIm aloneno one interrupts my senses
The food is bad
silverware clashing
chaos
something is doing unsettling
You can hear it pour
A light rain mumblings of a crowd
cracking
The metal
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sensesdrycompressed powder
a factory
Its destroyed
a wheat field after a rainstorm |
because this is what we dowe arrive to our parties and hour after they startwe know full well when we are supposed to be there but we show up late anyway we dont have any prior engagements but we act like we do
and we make sure were dressed well,
and we dont talk to anyone we dont know
and as soon as the party is starting to decline
this is how we keep our friends |
before i learned betteryoud think that the people that are most like youare perfect for you but if you find someone like that and youre dating someone like that youll see that they now have the same faults as you do except their faults seem so much worse and you want to kill them for the faults you have and you want to crack their head open and see their brains flowing out in the street
yeah, i know your mood swings, your hatred |
cant answer that onei have a better job than youi have more talent than you ive made more money than you
im attractive
im strong
and i look at what we had
why did i ever put up with you
with all my talent, with all my |
chances one: here I amyou asked me if you haveonly so many loves in your life and the answer is yes
and its not because of fate
that you can find someone
and someone that makes you feel alive
that only happens so often, you know
am |
choicesFebruary 14, 1997
dont hate yourself |
didnt know what it wasi wanted you tonightand i wanted to make sure the world knew that i wanted you and it was only because i knew i wanted something and i didnt know what it was |
I have my dreamsI dont even careif you call me anymore because I have my dreams and they make me happier than you |
i must believeive never had regrets beforeive never had any fears before ive never been alone before
and now i wonder what ive done
are you thinking of me right now?
i must believe you know im here |
im always the oneim always the onewho has to pick up the pieces
all ive done
and now i have to |
MarriedSome women are married to their husbands,cooking them dinners, greeting them with a smile keeping themselves trim, dressing up for when her man walks through that door. Letting him dictate all of her actions.
Some women are married to their careers,
Some women are married to their home,
Some women are married to their addictions, |
masqueradeyou asked me to the masqueradeand I willingly complied but Im tired of wearing that dress for the feathers in my costume wont stop licking my eyes and you cannot see the tears falling behind my cheek -
when you see the price they pay |
anyone good enoughi used to think that i was no goodthat i was worthless that i meant nothing
and then i got a good job
and then i looked in the mirror
and people laughed at my jokes
and now i look around me
and i wonder if i expect too much |
death is a dogDeath is an untrained little bitchit pees on the carpet and barks through the night and its always begging for scraps at the table seeing what it can take from you when youve got your back turned when youre not looking
when you want it to heal,
I know what it takes to die
Death is an untrained little bitch
I leave a bowl of water out and I still refill the bowl
and vacuum the dog hair
Death is an untrained little bitch, I tell you
shell claim her territory |
Death takes many forms.It is winter now.The trees have lost their leaves; the city is covered in a thin layer of soot and snow. The grass is dead. In the sunless sky black birds circle overhead searching for prey. An eerie cold settles over everything. Nothing is growing anymore.
Death takes many forms.
Death takes many forms.
Death takes many forms.
Death takes many forms.
Death takes many forms. If only I could do this forever.
Death takes many forms.
When I left, I knew you didnt want me to go. Why are we always saying good bye to each other?
Are you trying to teach me a lesson?
Death takes many forms.
Death takes many forms.
You once showed me that winter could be beautiful. Well, Im still learning.
It is winter now. |
fantastic car crashand our life is one big road trip nowand we set the cruise control and make our way down the expressway.
and most of the time were just moving
but I know whats inside you and I
you are a fantastic car crash. you stop
everything shatters with you, you know.
through the air. and every time you leave
from the windows. you know, the glass breaks
even though Im careful
and the glass cuts into my hands
to this fantastic car crash
and I wave my hand to the line of traffic: |
I Dreamt About You Last NightI dreamt about you last nightand I fell out of bed twice you can pin and mount me like a butterfly - Steven M.
I dreamt about you last night.
They say that dreams are your
Youre the one that left me.
I dreamt about you last night.
I wish I could have told you
I saw you today. You were in a
Let me think that it was you,
I dreamt about you last night.
All I keep thinking is that |
Im not sick but Im not wellIm not sick but Im not welland Im sure theres something I can do about this Ive popped the aspirin the tylenol the ibuprofen the codine the prozac the sleeping pills and that thermometer is down my throat and Im gagging
Im not sick but Im not well
Im not sick but Im not well
Im not sick but Im not well
no, Im not sick and maybe Im not well |
springtime.
(with c.m.)
i feel the cool breeze as the condensation of night falls on my lips
i know what follows springtime; the heat of winter, the cooling of fall,
if things dont grow, they die. this is the lesson we learn as children,
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